Creative Binge

i've been on an extremely serious reading/music/singing/drawing binge craze this past few weeks.

it all started when i watched this particular youtube video of "i'll be there" by mariah carey. i knew this song long before and its not like i was never exposed to good music. but something about this video "hit the spot" for me so to say. i loved everything about it: the song, the way she sang it, the emotions i felt as i was watching her. the closeness of the audience. trey lorenz. he just nailed it. just putting myself in her spotlight gave me an emotional high (is that how drugs make you feel?). sounds like an exaggeration but never made me wish i could be a singer so badly in my life before. (my dream career as a child was to be a singer if anyone didnt know). i spent my afternoons of my precious weekends playing my favorite songs over and over singing along as if i were on stage (what an embrassing sight to be caught in). not only that, i started to fantasize how i would perform live on stage singing and playing the piano like alicia keys style. and i would get so giddy just thinking about how good it would make me feel to be applauded by so many people. so i started to show some love again to my abandoned piano, "putting it to perfection" some of the pieces i started halfway in the summer.

but wait it doesnt stop here. suddenly my cravings for words, lyrics, literature, books, phrases, insights all hit me. i wanted to dive myself into the world created by authors, feel the words as if they were tangible. it's been about a week and a half since i started this phase and im already on my third book. i now look forward to lunch at work not because i can eat but because i can read. starbucks has been my favorite place these days. i never knew an hour could go by so quickly. i also realized that i read in british accent.

makes me sound like a pregnant woman with all these sudden cravings. but the point is, everyone has and needs their creative outlet. and in some sense this blog has been my creative outlet as well. its different for everyone though obviously. what's yours?

as for my drawing binges, ill leave it to the pictures.

and because its valentines day, here's a nice vase of roses ;)